Thursday, October 1, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
As mentioned in my previous post, I had a PET/CT scan performed on May 2. I'm horrible at explaining technical things, but Patti over at Mom's Story
gives a wonderful explanation of it all. If you want to know the hows, whys and whats of a PET/CT, check out her post.
Anyway, my blood work, according to Dr. J, looks great. He also stated that my PET/CT looks good. The PET/CT report states that there's "marked increased activity within the right lower pelvis which appears to correspond to the right ovary. This could be related to a recently ruptured follicle or follicular activity. There is otherwise no abnormal activity from vertex to midthighs to suggest recurrent or residual lymphoma. A right axillary lymph node and several mesenteric lymph nodes are all relatively stable..." This is all good news, however a repeat PET/CT is recommended in 6 months time "as a precautionary measure" to keep an eye on that activity in the lower right pelvis.
The friend in California with melanoma that I mentioned in my last post sadly died on May 10. He was an amazing person.
Take care of yourselves folks!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
But, the grim reality of it all sets in when yet another needle goes into a vein for some more testing. I had blood work done on Friday (May 1), and my second PET scan was performed at 8:00 a.m. yesterday. The test itself is no big deal, but it IS creepy thinking that something radioactive is being injected into my body. I'm not sure I like that.
I'll know the results of both tests when I visit my oncologist, Dr. J. in a couple weeks.
I just got word today that an acquaintance in California has taken a turn for the worse and basically has been sent home from the hospital to die. He was diagnosed with melanoma last year, and things just got progressively worse at a rapid rate. We on the Turbo! mailing list refer to him as "Uncle Bob". He'll be in our thoughts and prayers.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I had an appointment with Dr. P (my "alternative oncologist" who's been tracking my vitamin D levels) on April 8 to discuss my recent vitamin D test results and any other questions I might have. Dr. P was impressed with my recent weight loss due to my healthier eating habits...he commented multiple times on how good I looked! Chalk one up to a mostly vegetarian, sugar-free, trans-fat-free, wheat-free diet! I do FEEL great too.
Tomorrow I'm getting some routine blood work done (approximately 10 vials if it's anything like the last ones I've had done), and Saturday a.m. is another PET scan. I'm fairly confident that the scan will be good. And if it's not, well, I'll be very surprised!
While talking with Dr. P, he suggested I get a methyl B-12 shot, which I did there while at the office. He thought I might notice an improvement in my energy levels, but I didn't, really, so I'm wondering if I really need them. I've been feeling fairly energetic lately as it is.
I thank God daily for my new-found outlook on life...I feel more alive now that I've got cancer than I did in my pre-C days, partly due to the fact that I've been taking better care of myself, and partly because I view each day as a gift. And I think I'm even a little more playful..."Never take life too seriously...no one gets out alive anyway".
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
The following recently was published on one of my lymphoma mailing lists...good news for the wine drinkers amongst us!
Drinking wine may increase survival among non-Hodgkin'
April 21st, 2009
Pre-diagnostic wine consumption may reduce the risk of
death and relapse among non-Hodgkin'
epidemiology study presented at the American Association for Cancer
Research 100th Annual Meeting 2009.
Xuesong Han, the first author of the abstract and a doctoral candidate at
the Yale School of Public Health, said their findings would need to be
replicated before any public health recommendations are made, but the
evidence is becoming clearer that moderate consumption of wine has
"This conclusion is controversial, because excessive drinking has a
negative social and health impact, and it is difficult to define what is
moderate and what is excessive," said Han. "However, we are continually
seeing a link between wine and positive outcomes in many cancers."
This study was the first to examine the link among patients with
women with non-Hodgkin'
They found that those who drank wine had a 76 percent five-year survival
compared with 68 percent for non-wine drinkers. Further research found
five-year, disease-free survival was 70 percent among those who drank wine
compared with 65 percent among non-wine drinkers.
Beer and/or liquor consumption did not show a benefit.
The study team at Yale also looked at subgroups of lymphoma patients, and
found the strongest link between wine consumption and favorable outcomes
among patients with diffuse large B-cell lymphoma. These patients had a 40
to 50 percent reduced risk of death, relapse or secondary cancer.
Researchers then conducted an analysis to examine the effect of wine
consumption among those who had drunk wine for at least the previous 25
years before diagnosis. Non-Hodgkin'
drinking wine for at least this long had a 25 to 35 percent reduced risk
of death, relapse or secondary cancer.
Those patients with large B-cell lymphoma had about 60 percent reduced
risk of death, relapse or secondary cancer if they had been drinking wine
for at least the previous 25 years before diagnosis.
"It is clear that lifestyle factors like alcohol can affect outcome," said
Source: American Association for Cancer Research
Friday, March 27, 2009
Sometimes I feel a little guilty that I'm feeling so good! But I know my days are numbered in that regard, and that at some point my lymphoma will "transform" and become aggressive, then it'll be my turn to go the chemo route. Hopefully that time is a long, long way off. It is kind of creepy knowing that I've got an incurable cancer floating around in my body. Sometimes I envy cancer patients that have one type of cancer or another that can just be cut out of the body and they're done with it. No more cancer...it's all gone. I wonder if they continue to live in fear?
Monday, March 9, 2009
MID AUGUST 2008: I notice a hard bump just behind my left ear. It's about the size of a pea, very hard, non-movable, and doesn't hurt...this is my first clue that I've got some sort of lymphoma. After a few days of feeling the lump and realizing that it's not going away, I call my family doctor for an appointment.
August 20: I visit my family doctor, Dr. P, and she prescribes an antibiotic just to make sure the enlarged lymph node isn't caused by some sort of infection. She is optimistic and says it's probably nothing to worry about, but given my past history with atypical follicular lymphoid hyperplasia, thinks we need to proceed with caution.
SEPTEMBER 4: I return to Dr. P's office for a check-up. The lymph node is still enlarged, and in fact a second lymph node has popped up right beside the first one. Dr. P says she will schedule an appointment with a surgeon, Dr. C, who performed my previous lymph node biopsy. An appointment is made for the end of September. I'm freaked because I'm thinking "what's taking so long...this is probably cancer! Let's get it out, NOW!". Several days later I call Dr. C's office to try and schedule an earlier appointment. After several days, I succeed in getting an appointment for Sept. 17.
SEPTEMBER 12: I find a 3rd enlarged lymph node, albeit a very tiny one, on the right side of my neck.
SEPTEMBER 17: I go see Dr. C. He, too, is optimistic and states this is probably just an infection (even though antibiotics didn't phase it and only seemed to propagate more nodes, which of course it didn't). He doesn't think the small node on the right side of my neck is in any way related to the ones behind my left ear. He says he'll perform a needle biopsy next week.
SEPTEMBER 24: Dr. C's office and I get all prepped for the "needle biopsy". Area is cleaned and numbed, lots and lots of something going on up there and I suspect he's doing more than a needle biopsy. He did, in fact, remove the entire lymph node...change of plans apparently, or I simply misunderstood the procedure from the beginning. Anyway, he showed me the lymph node which looked like a red Jelly Belly jelly bean. He stitched me up with 5 stitches and I made an appointment to come back next week.
OCTOBER 1: Visit with Dr. C to get my biopsy results: follicular non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Dr. C says they'll need to start chemo ASAP and has me sign a paper allowing him to implant a port so I don't have to come back in to the office later to do that paperwork. He makes arrangements for me to visit an oncologist in Shamokin Dam, a Dr. J. In the meantime, I'll need to get a host of tests done, which Dr. C's office arranges. I also insist on a visit with my former oncologist at Hershey Medical Center, Dr. H.
OCTOBER 7: My 50th birthday, and a CT scan to the head, chest and abdomen.
OCTOBER 8: I join the Lymphoma Survival group at www.lymphomasurvival.com
OCTOBER 9: My first appointment with Dr. J, an oncologist specializing in hematology. Dr. J checks my scan results and biopsy report and confirms that I have follicular non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma. He says my prognosis is very good considering my lack of symptoms, my age and my scan results, and tentatively says that I'm a grade 1-2, stage 1, which is good news as far as cancer news goes. He says he's planning a "curative" approach to my cancer, but this confuses me because I've read that this cancer is NOT curable. I've come to learn that doctors call it a "cure" if the patient survives beyond 5 or 7 years, or something along those lines. Dr. J's office makes arrangements for my PET scan at Evangelical Hospital in Lewisburg. Dr. J suggests chemo.
OCTOBER 13-17--we take a vacation to Maine with our youngest son, Tyler, and our dog, Toodie. I've begun practicing many of the "targeted natural strategies" I've read about on the Lymphoma Survival website.
OCTOBER 18: PET scan at Evan. The technician is able to give me a CD of the scan to take to Dr. H at Hershey Medical Center.
OCTOBER 20: My appointment with Dr. H at Hershey. Dr. H is as nice as ever and a real joy. He confirms the diagnosis, and looks at the PET scan CD and declares he sees nothing out of the ordinary, or anything to be concerned with. He suggests chemo, but he said, "we'll be gentle". He's going to try and get in touch with Dr. J and discuss my case over the phone. He's also going to present my case before their "tumor board" and get their opinion.
OCTOBER 22: Another appointment with Dr. J. Chemo is again discussed. This is freaking me out.
OCTOBER 23: I have an appointment today with Dr. K, a radiation oncologist and a colleague of Dr. J and in the same office. Dr. J says I'll need chemo, then radiation, and Dr. K would like to see me before any treatments begin so he has something to compare with post-treatment.
OCTOBER 28: Bone marrow biopsy today performed by Dr. J. I told them of my horrific time with the bone marrow biopsy at Hershey in '96. They didn't seem concerned because they said they give all their patients Demerol and Ativan, and said I probably wouldn't care WHAT they were doing to me. Nurse started an IV and gave me the good stuff. Shortly thereafter I started feeling kind of sick, sweated BUCKETS and seemed to have just come out of a swimming pool I was so wet. My pulse dropped to 47, my blood pressure dropped to 74/40-something...so I needed more saline to get my BP back up to where it was suppose to be before Dr. J could even begin the procedure. The drugs did NOTHING for me other than cause this reaction. I was coherent the entire time, held good conversation, and remember everything. The nurse later said she was amazed as she's never seen anyone be able to hold a conversation like I did, or be able to get up and walk around un-aided as I was able to do. Pain killers and tranquilizers seem to do absolutely nothing for me...I've discovered this at prior surgeries, but that's another story. Finally, about the time the procedure should have been finished, Dr. J was able to begin. The procedure wasn't fun, but survivable. Yeah, it hurt.
OCTOBER 30: I called Dr. H at Hershey to see if he'd been able to get in touch with Dr. J, and to see what the tumor board had decided, re: my lymphoma case. The tumor board still hadn't had a chance to discuss my case as they didn't have my biopsy slides to look at. Bummer.
NOVEMBER 3: Appointment with Dr. J to get my bone marrow biopsy results. Dr. J had said earlier that he was 99% certain that it wouldn't be found in my bone marrow, based on my previous tests and scans. HOWEVER...the test results proved him wrong, unfortunately. My official bone marrow biopsy report reads: "Immunohistochemical analysis of the bone marrow core biopsy shows two separate, T-cell predominant, lymphoid aggregates. Conclusive innunohistochemcial proof that these aggregates represent limited marrow infiltration by follicular lymphoma was not obtained. This does not exclude lymphoma." and.... "Combined flow cytometric and morphologic analysis suggesting limited, bone marrow involvement by low-grade, B-cell, non-Hodgkin's lymphoma (less than 1% of total nucleated marrow elements with T-cell predominantly lymphoid aggregates occupying well under 5% of the marrow spaces in the core biopsy").
Well, the good news is that IF there is lymphoma in the bone marrow, there's very, very little. But just the fact that there probably is a teeny bit there puts me in the stage 4 category, rather than a mere stage 1. Stage 1 simply means that the lymphoma has not spread and is in one location. A stage 4 means it could be everywhere and is in multiple body locations. Bone marrow involvement always means a stage 4.
NOVEMBER 5: Pre-op appointment with Dr. C, who will be implanting my chemo port on November 10. More paperwork is signed, and Dr. C explains the procedure and how the port works.
In the meantime, I'm still waiting to hear from Dr. H to see if the tumor board has reviewed my case. I fax some information to Dr. H about "watch and wait" to see what he thinks about this option.
NOVEMBER 7: Friday. Pre-admission testing at the hospital. On tap for today is blood work and an echocardiogram (since one of the chemo drugs can cause heart damage).
I FINALLY get a call from Dr. H, who says that the tumor board reviewed my case, and the lymphoma experts there agree with the "watch & wait" option. What a relief!! I call Dr. J's office and tell them this news. They call back to let me know they'll cancel Monday's port surgery in light of the fact that I may not need chemo based on this revelation. Whew!
NOVEMBER 14: Appointment with Dr. J to discuss options. Even though he was pushing for chemo, he admits that watch & wait is within the scope of practice and a legitimate option. Why didn't he mention this before? I'm actually a bit more than miffed at this. Further proof that a person is their own best advocate. We discuss the possibility of localized radiation to the area where the lymph node was removed. Dr. J stated that if my bone marrow biopsy had been done 20 years ago, the result would have been negative as flow cytometry wasn't available then. So, knowing that more often than not, a stage 1, grade 1-2 lymphoma could be cured with radiation alone, and I would still be grade 1-2, stage 1 without flow cytometry, why not treat me with radiation and hope for a cure? There's that "cure" word again. So, another appointment is set up with Dr. K, the radiation oncologist.
NOVEMBER 17: Appointment with Dr. K, who discusses side-effects of radiation, etc. I get measured and tattooed so they can radiate the same spot precisely each time.
NOVEMBER 20: My first of 15 radiation treatments. Scary only because I've never had this done before...and I KNOW it won't hurt, but it's creepy. Goes without a hitch.
DECEMBER 15: The last of my radiation treatments. Missed a few days because of the holidays and a broken radiation machine. The only side-effects I'm noticing is extreme fatigue, and the skin at the area being radiated has become very red and itchy...this didn't start until about treatment 12 or 13. I've been slathering pure aloe vera gel on that area as directed by Dr. J.
DECEMBER 17: A consultation with Dr. P, a radiation oncologist and alternative medicine doc who owns the cancer clinic where I've been going in Shamokin Dam. We discuss nutrition and supplements for an hour. He's suggested several things for me to do. (1) take between 6,000 and 10,000 mg of vitamin C daily. Cancer cells feed on sugar, and they mistake the vit. C for sugar, eat it and die because they can't uptake sugars as the C won't leave the cancer cells (my shortened version of the process). (2). Eat a "low amylose" diet...this will reduce the amount of sugar available to the cancer cells...I'll be reducing my sugar intake drastically! (3) Supplement with Iodorol (iodine), lecithin, Methyl B12, and folic acid in addition to what I'm already taking on a daily basis. He prescribes some blood tests for me, including a vitamin D test at my request.
DECEMBER 29: I get my hair cut! Lori cuts 36 inches of hair off (!!!), 32 inches will be donated to Locks of Love. My hair is now about 3 inches long, if that.
JANUARY 6, 2009: I get the results for my blood work and find that my vitamin D levels are perilously low. The vitamin D, 25-OH result is 23 ng/ml and the optimal amount is between 45-52. Dr. P recommends I take 2,000 IU of vitamin D daily. This I will do in addition to my 5 minutes every-other-day in front of the vitamin D lamp that I've recently purchased.
JANUARY 13: Follow-up appointment with Dr. K. Everything looks good. Skin is still very red and itchy, but that will go away. Still tired, but that too, shall pass.
FEBRUARY 2: Blood work! Something like 7 or 8 vials of blood is taken, again. At least I asked if I could lie down this time BEFORE I started getting woozy. I have no problem with blood, giving blood, seeing blood, but when they take that much out while I'm sitting UP, that's a big mistake!
FEBRUARY 11: Follow-up appointment with Dr. C. I thought it was to discuss my acid reflux, but he talked about the lymphoma issue instead and wanted to order a PET scan. Huh? I like this doc, but he's not my oncologist....I'll leave that stuff up to the cancer pros.
FEBRUARY 12: Follow-up with Dr. J to get the results of my blood work. He said everything looks good. He thinks we should have a PET scan done in May just to make sure everything is behaving. I've said "OK" to that. Dr. C wanted me to have one performed ASAP.
Preparations were being made to start chemo. I had countless blood tests, and a bone marrow biopsy which turned into a disaster for me; apparently my body didn't like what was going on and decided to go into shock...low BP, thirsty, sweaty, nausea, restless...a truly nasty feeling. After that little fiasco I decided if I EVER had to have another bone marrow biopsy, I'd want to be put under general anesthesia!
The day after my bone marrow biopsy, I got a phone call from Hershey Medical Center. They had good news!! Apparently the lymphoma experts looked yet again at my slides and determined that I didn't have lymphoma at all, but rather I had what is called "atypical follicular lymphoid hyperplasia." No treatments would be needed. At my last visit with Dr. Harvey, he told me to "keep an eye on things, because people who have atypical hyperplasia often end up with lymphoma down the road."
After nearly a month of pure agony, I felt like I'd been released from a prison! I could begin to live again.
Twelve years later...here I am, newly diagnosed with follicular non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma...just what the good doc warned me might happen.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Imagine, if you will, that you've been falsely accused of a murder. You're innocent of course, yet you go to trial and are found guilty and condemned to death. All the way to the gallows you're screaming, "I'm innocent! I didn't do it!"...that's sort of what it's like to hear your doctor tell you that you've got cancer, especially if it's considered incurable. I'm a health freak, an organic gardener, an ex-marathon runner...how could I have cancer?! I don't smoke, only drink occasionally, hate to take any kind of medicines...my body is a temple; I should treat it with respect. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20.
Yet here I am left wondering "why me?" and "how'd I get this?" Dozens of times a day, every day, I think about cancer... think about my lymphoma, its causes, its treatments. I think about my mortality. I think about God. I think about every bit of food I put into my mouth and wonder if I'm feeding me or the cancer. That's my "new normal".
In the coming days I will write about the various tests I've had so far and the treatments I've already undergone and those that I will possibly have in the future. And I will talk about my new normal.